The people who love us can ruin us, I have learnt that. It is sometimes a mistake to let those people in, so that they can rampage through the caverns of your heart, those dark places that no one was supposed to know about and quite by accident, they find the passage de secrete that was hidden behind all those thorns you resurrected. But I have also learnt that, sometimes there is nothing you can do to stop those mistakes from happening. They have to occur in order for us to be able to move on from the worst hurt; the kind of pain that feels like a being is silently ripping you apart inside. As arteries, veins and ventricles are slashed and pulled from one another; time is the only kind of surgeon that can slowly sew it all back together again. And sometimes, people can only use sellotape and string as a way of delicately holding it all together, because it was all too much, too quickly.
2 comments:
this was quite lovely....it brightened my day to feel my pain willingly by hurting myself while reading it. just knowing it was very much true, and that was sorta what i was going through.
thank you x becasue i loved someone i let them do horrable things to me again and again but reading your words, they really struck a chord with me. you cant stop these things from happpaning, and we do put up so many barriers to stop are selfs from being hurt. but they dnt always work. iam now trying to break down my own barriers so that one day i can let someone in and let them love me with out slamming the door in there face or losing the love of my life because i dnt want them to see me for who i really am. after all i can not change the past. it is nearly two years since i broke up with him, it does still hurt but the time that has pasted has helped me to realise that it was not my fault. i feel in love. thank you ever so for your words, and i hope that your pain heels.
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